God's power is very great for those who believe. Psalms 10:14

I found out 1 hour ago that my oldest grand-daughter Kellsie has been admitted to Children’s Hospital for the third time in 5 years because of cancer. I hate cancer! I hate cancer with a white hot hate that could eat me alive it I didn’t have God to rescue me, if He didn’t take my hatred from me. The only thing that helps is love, trust and faith…In God! 　 An hour ago, I couldn’t move, I couldn’t stay still…I couldn’t cry, I couldn’t not cry…I couldn’t stay quiet, I couldn’t talk. I was numb. All I could do was remind myself to keep my eyes on Jesus. Over and over I said to myself…”Keep your eyes on Jesus” . Then I began to pray.

God knows how much I love Him, He knows how much I trust Him, He knows how much faith I have in Him. I found out today how much I love Him, how much I trust Him, how much faith I have in Him. He knew I would need Him so much today. Maybe more than I ever had before. This morning, He led me to work on a bible study I am preparing. It was  “Experiencing the Heart of Jesus” by Max Lucado. I was preparing my lesson, taking notes, making outlines, writing out scriptures; finalizing worksheets to teach my class how God would be there for us when we needed him. All we had to do was call out for Him. 

He knew. He knew this morning how much I would need Him this afternoon. I don’t know how He did. I just praise Him for knowing…for seeking out to His one sheep that needed Him the most just now. He surrounded me with His love and comforted me.   I prayed to Him…I cried out to Him to be the eyes, hands and brains for the doctors that were going to operate on Kellsie tonight or tomorrow. I asked that where His hands touched, the cancer would die…I asked that where He knew there was cancer, that the cancer would die. I asked Him to use Kellsie for His glory. Let her become the nurse she is studying for and use those skills that He has given her for His glory to heal other children.

I am surprisingly calm right now. The following is from the bible study I was preparing this morning.  I wanted to share it with you also.

Day 1: The Heart of the Matter

If you are not sure what to do, allow God to take the lead. God will fight for you. You just need to trust. God’s power is very great for those who believe.  God put it in writing below:


You need only to remain calm; the Lord will fight for you. Exodus 14:14
He is my defender: I will not be defeated. Psalms 62:6

No, the Lord is all I need. He takes care of me. Psalms 16:5

God’s power is very great for those who believe. Ephesians 1:19

He always helps us in times of trouble. Psalms 46:1

He will make us strong and support us. Isaiah 41:10

He helps us when we feel like orphans. Psalms 10:14

He listens to our prayers. Psalms 34:15


When I woke up this morning, God already knew how much I would need Him.  How I love God for knowing all that He knows. How I love God for his mercy.   God carries my name in the palm of His hand…He carries Kellsie’s name in His palm also.  He listens to our prayers.  I love walking with God each day.   When I asked God to come into my life and heal me, He did not fail me then, and He will not fail me now. I have been walking with God every day since then…He has opened my eyes to amazing and wonderful things…I will continue to be with Him forever.