“My ways are not like your ways; my thoughts are not like your thoughts” said the Lord.

Lord, I praise you for that. We cannot create the beautiful sunrises and sunsets. We cannot make the flowers grow from seeds planted in the soil. Seeds to flowers to seeds again. We cannot even conceive of that. You can Father, only You. That is why you are the great I AM. Praise you Father.

I AM. Two little words that have the most meaning in all the world, all the stars, all the universe, and all of heaven. But these words will only have meaning when we know more about You. They have meaning when we have a daily relationship with you and begin to learn more and more about you. They can only have meaning when we open our hearts to you; opening them completely and humbly. They can only have understanding at a human level even when we desire to be with you more than anything. They only have meaning when we realize the sacrifice you made with your Son, whom you were well pleased. Everything we have and everything we are is because of you. These are the promises of the Lord. I AM. Praise you Lord. I am grateful that Your ways are not like my ways and that Your thoughts are not like my thoughts. There is faith, hope, and comfort and most of all peace in that bit of knowledge.

Everything we have is not ours, it is yours. Praise you Lord.

You gave us your Son, Jesus to be our eternal salvation. You gave us the Holy Spirit when we accepted Your Son as our Savior. You gave us everything we have, everything we are. It is all yours, not ours. This is important to remember, everything is Yours. All are gifts from You.

And when we think of you, we think of your great attributes and know how much you love us and our loved ones. We know how much we love our family. We cannot begin to understand your love for us and our family. But Your ways are not like my ways; Your thoughts are not like my thoughts. Praise you Father for your unending, unfathomable, unfailing love, your I AM. Praise God that Your ways are not like our ways and that Your thoughts are not like our thoughts! We can find comfort and peace in that.


Praise God!

Deep inside my mind is a dark place that is controlling my thoughts. With God’s help I can open up that space, and let my fears fly up to Him like liberated doves. With God’s help we will replace this dark place with light. I will captivate my fears, surround them with the light of God and the truth of Jesus. Then and only then will I find freedom, peace and comfort.


My dark place tells me that I am not good enough, I am not praying right, I should have taught my son about God and Jesus. My dark space is filled with guilt and fear. My dark spaces are filled with coulda, woulda, shouldas. Father, I want to exchange the darkness with You, with the light of You word, the Spirit of truth and Jesus’ love.

I asked God to forgive me and repented then I asked him to fill that void…with Him. Together, we took captive my darkness and I allowed God to free me. Freedom is such a simple word but I made it so complex. Once I was lost…but now I am found. God is in control and would be in control all the time if I only let Him.

Recognize your fears, face your demons, bring them to God. God is stronger. Open your eyes and see how the heavenly angels always, always outnumber the enemy. God is stronger. Let God know you need help. Anywhere, anyplace, anytime. ALWAYS…God is stronger! Take your dark thoughts captive and with God’s help and fill that space with the Light of Jesus. Every little millimeter. God’s light brings inner warmth, peace, contentment and overcomes all our fears. GOD IS STRONGER!


Our need for God is simple His ability to fill all of our needs is complex. Thank you for being who you are Father. I love you Father, I love you Jesus, I pray these thoughts in Jesus’ precious name.

Blessed are those who have learned to acclaim you, who walk in the light of your presence, LORD. Psalm 89:15

God Is More Wonderful Than Human Words Can Express

God is more wonderful than human words can express.

I am filled with joy and thanks this morning. Someone has made a gesture, an offering to my granddaughter and her family that means so much more that just the offering. It brings something to get excited about, something new to think about, a means avoiding possible complications, and I cannot praise God enough for putting this plan together. God is using someone to complete His plan. What a wonderful fulfillment for that person. What a wonderful gift for Kellsie and her family.

That is how my day began, on my porch, thanking God with words that couldn’t express what I wanted to. So, I asked the Holy Spirit to convey to my God what I was feeling inside. I was not adequate. But God bestowed me with the Holy Spirit when I accepted Jesus as His son for just these occasions. I am grateful for that. I don’t mind knowing I am not adequate enough, I am human. God is I Am. And in His infinite wisdom, He has created a way for me to become adequate enough. Thank you Father.

God's power is very great for those who believe. Psalms 10:14

I found out 1 hour ago that my oldest grand-daughter Kellsie has been admitted to Children’s Hospital for the third time in 5 years because of cancer. I hate cancer! I hate cancer with a white hot hate that could eat me alive it I didn’t have God to rescue me, if He didn’t take my hatred from me. The only thing that helps is love, trust and faith…In God! 　 An hour ago, I couldn’t move, I couldn’t stay still…I couldn’t cry, I couldn’t not cry…I couldn’t stay quiet, I couldn’t talk. I was numb. All I could do was remind myself to keep my eyes on Jesus. Over and over I said to myself…”Keep your eyes on Jesus” . Then I began to pray.

God knows how much I love Him, He knows how much I trust Him, He knows how much faith I have in Him. I found out today how much I love Him, how much I trust Him, how much faith I have in Him. He knew I would need Him so much today. Maybe more than I ever had before. This morning, He led me to work on a bible study I am preparing. It was  “Experiencing the Heart of Jesus” by Max Lucado. I was preparing my lesson, taking notes, making outlines, writing out scriptures; finalizing worksheets to teach my class how God would be there for us when we needed him. All we had to do was call out for Him. 

He knew. He knew this morning how much I would need Him this afternoon. I don’t know how He did. I just praise Him for knowing…for seeking out to His one sheep that needed Him the most just now. He surrounded me with His love and comforted me.   I prayed to Him…I cried out to Him to be the eyes, hands and brains for the doctors that were going to operate on Kellsie tonight or tomorrow. I asked that where His hands touched, the cancer would die…I asked that where He knew there was cancer, that the cancer would die. I asked Him to use Kellsie for His glory. Let her become the nurse she is studying for and use those skills that He has given her for His glory to heal other children.

I am surprisingly calm right now. The following is from the bible study I was preparing this morning.  I wanted to share it with you also.

Day 1: The Heart of the Matter

If you are not sure what to do, allow God to take the lead. God will fight for you. You just need to trust. God’s power is very great for those who believe.  God put it in writing below:


You need only to remain calm; the Lord will fight for you. Exodus 14:14
He is my defender: I will not be defeated. Psalms 62:6

No, the Lord is all I need. He takes care of me. Psalms 16:5

God’s power is very great for those who believe. Ephesians 1:19

He always helps us in times of trouble. Psalms 46:1

He will make us strong and support us. Isaiah 41:10

He helps us when we feel like orphans. Psalms 10:14

He listens to our prayers. Psalms 34:15


When I woke up this morning, God already knew how much I would need Him.  How I love God for knowing all that He knows. How I love God for his mercy.   God carries my name in the palm of His hand…He carries Kellsie’s name in His palm also.  He listens to our prayers.  I love walking with God each day.   When I asked God to come into my life and heal me, He did not fail me then, and He will not fail me now. I have been walking with God every day since then…He has opened my eyes to amazing and wonderful things…I will continue to be with Him forever.

Clarity

I always feared my dry spells.  I felt I wasn't connected to God.  I felt I wasn't seeing God; I wasn't hearing God; I wasn't feeling God.  All I could feel was fear.  I thought God was working in my life but because I couldn't hear, see, or feel Him, I was afraid I was missing it...............Then...............I realized that during a dry spell, God was working on my clay.  He was preparing me for something He had in store for me.  I wasn't seeing it yet because God wasn't ready.  I wasn't hearing it yet because God wasn't ready.  I wasn't feeling it yet because GOD WASN'T READY FOR ME TO! 

He was with me though.  I was maturing in my relationship with God by the fruit of the Spirit.  It became clear that I trying to see God with my eyes.....not the eyes of my Spirit.  I was trying to hear God with my ears...again, not the ears of my Spirit.  I wasn't feeling God because I was feeling fear instead.  God was teaching me how to use every sense to know Him; to desire to know Him with every ounce of me. 

Now...I am excited by my "dry spells".  THEY ARE NOT DRY SPELLS!  God is there, I am learning to patiently wait for Him to be ready.  So when quiet spells happen, they are not dry.  This time I open myself to the excitement of knowing that He has a purpose for me and He is preparing me for His purpose.  Dry spells aren't dry...they are miracles from God, my God, who loves me very much!  Father, I love you too! 

God is really working on my clay. He answered my prayers. I while back, I ..asked Him to show me any areas that I needed to improve on. He IS! It is scary! It is humbling! It is wonderful! I picture God as working on a bowl, not anywhere close to finished, just hollowed out in the center. He looks into the bowl and says to me, "There, do you see that!” I look into the bowl and see a lump that should not be there. I know it should not be there, I just don't know what it is. God tells me, "It is pride". Pride in ungodly things. Pride in worldly things. Together, we will work on removing it.



Last night I spent a good amount of time praying for God to help me with a problem. I have been working so hard on seeking Him first and have gained ground in that area. I gave my problem to Him and said I would wait for his answer. This is a pretty big problem and on my mind so much. I cried out to him, I ranted and raved at the cause of the problem. I asked for comfort, hugs, peace. I claimed promises that He had made to me in the past and ask for a few more. I finished praying and came out of my prayer room at peace.



I began thinking about waiting on the Lord. I knew this was an area that God would help me with…I needed so much help! P..A..T..I..E..N..C..E   Fruit of the Spirit.   One of my worst faults. But I was already past the first step, I recognized that this was a fault of mine. I remembered all the times I laughed at my lack of patience. I was wearing it as a badge, a mark of honor. I thought of how many times, I laughingly said, “I prayed for patience…and then I took it back!



Somewhere between then and today, I realized that pride raised its ugly head. I was so guilty of wanting to be recognized for my lack of patience. Today I am feeling proud that I recognized that fault. I guess there is good pride and bad pride. I think good pride is used for the Lord’s purpose. Bad pride is used for selfish purposes…ungodly purposes…worldly purposes.



So that brings me back to the lump in the bottom of my bowl. I am glad that God is removing it. I am glad that God pointed it out to me. I am scared about what will happen as He removes it, but I know God is gentle, patient, loving, kind, good, faithful as He works on my bowl. He is the Potter, I am the clay! As He works to give me patience, I will wait on His answer to my problem. I will no longer wear my lack of patience as a crown…instead I open my Heart to the growth that God has planned for me with patience.

Working my clay!

God continually amazes me; I love that.  He gave me a message a few days ago to shift focus of my prayers to my stepdaughter.  So I did.  Not praying anything specific, just praying for her.  God amazed me when I realized that He was "working my clay" as I prayed for her.  I began to see her in a new light, I began to see myself in a new light.  God was working on her but the amazing thing was He was using this to open my eyes to what an awesome person she was. 

She had come back into her children's life after leaving them for about 8 years.  God was helping her to become a better mother.  I can't really tell this with enough justice, but today I saw God working through her to open my eyes and see her as God did. I saw her as God saw her, a sweet and beautiful person with a huge caring heart and a love for God that does not stop.  My eyes were opened to the bitterness in my heart that resulted from her children, my grandchildren, being hurt when she left.  God "worked my clay" and pulled the bitterness from me.  Bitterness is not of God!  He wouldn't allow it.  I didn't need it.  That particular bit of dross was G...O...N...E! 

Sometimes my step-daughter just needs to talk,  just needs to vent.  I do too sometimes.  God is teaching me to not always offer uninvited advice.  So, today, God removed all the bitterness from me.  I will gladly give it to Him. 

I will continue to pray for her as God has instructed me.  Expect the unexpected!  Not from God.  Expect His promises.   I love being amazed, it brings me joy.  I know I can depend on God, it's just fun finding Him at unexpected times and in unexpected places.  Uh-oh, I can see Him smiling, shaking His head joyfully and saying...That's just how it is!