Clarity

I always feared my dry spells.  I felt I wasn't connected to God.  I felt I wasn't seeing God; I wasn't hearing God; I wasn't feeling God.  All I could feel was fear.  I thought God was working in my life but because I couldn't hear, see, or feel Him, I was afraid I was missing it...............Then...............I realized that during a dry spell, God was working on my clay.  He was preparing me for something He had in store for me.  I wasn't seeing it yet because God wasn't ready.  I wasn't hearing it yet because God wasn't ready.  I wasn't feeling it yet because GOD WASN'T READY FOR ME TO! 

He was with me though.  I was maturing in my relationship with God by the fruit of the Spirit.  It became clear that I trying to see God with my eyes.....not the eyes of my Spirit.  I was trying to hear God with my ears...again, not the ears of my Spirit.  I wasn't feeling God because I was feeling fear instead.  God was teaching me how to use every sense to know Him; to desire to know Him with every ounce of me. 

Now...I am excited by my "dry spells".  THEY ARE NOT DRY SPELLS!  God is there, I am learning to patiently wait for Him to be ready.  So when quiet spells happen, they are not dry.  This time I open myself to the excitement of knowing that He has a purpose for me and He is preparing me for His purpose.  Dry spells aren't dry...they are miracles from God, my God, who loves me very much!  Father, I love you too!